Truths

Moving forward-Backing up

The tears come at the strangest time. Mr Incredible lies to Elastagirl about where he’s going. At airport security I flash to the last time we were at SFO… and waited for our ride that never came. I overhear someone mocking her own ‘daddy issues’. Lilith falls asleep, & I weep like I’d been desperately waiting for the opportunity behind my own back. My mind has been racing since May. I don’t often even notice…

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Truths

9 days

We leave in 9 days. Exactly 6 moons after he died. I’m sitting with a lot of big feelings. Excitement, fear, doubt, disbelief, avoidance, surrender, sadness, anxiety, hope, insignificance, grandiose importance… I recognize that all of these are just bubbles sitting on top of my grief. Grief is the ship. Grief is the reason for it all. Grief is the question and the answer. I am in service to my grief so that it does…

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